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Don't get too close, I'm an emotional wreck!Fretting the upcoming tight-scheduled weeks of torturing exams!
Fairytales and love are not part of my life.
I'm not CRAZY, my reality is just different than yours.
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Your average teen just trying to lead a normal life.Trying to live every day as if it's my last.
I'm downright awkward and a total introvert!
Hard-headed and strong-willed? That would be me.
Straightforward is my nature of communicating with people!
My flaws are what made me strong.
*God is love in its purest form.*
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Saturday, June 9, 2012
You just made fun of me when you get the chance to.
What's the meaning of that?
I keep asking myself that stupid question. Because I know that the answer is always 'It's nothing. Just a friendly gesture.'
I knew that that was always the way with you.
It means that I have been thinking of something that doesn't mean anything.
I remember that look upon your face. The way you look at me was peculiar.
I still remember every smile that you gave.
I wanted desperately to figure you out. But I know I will never be able to do that.
Is this just another crush? A crush that lasts no more than 4 months.
Will this feeling continue? Maybe in months time, there's a whole new person that I would want to discover.
And my thoughts would not just revolve around you anymore.
1:07 AM
There was that part of me who wanted to be in a relationship like anybody else. I was desperate.
But there is also that part of me that knows I am not anyone's type.
The way I act is too un-ladylike.
I am born this way.
I am born this way.
I am proud.
But somehow I wished that I could change that part, because that's the part that makes me so undesirable.
They all just pushes me on saying that I would find that one guy that appreciates me for who I am. But I don't believe that anymore.
Everyone has standards. And so far, I'm not up to any of those.
Why do I keep desiring? I don't look that kind. But I am.
Can I not think about that? I wished so much that it would just lay off. I wished that I was cooler. But no I am not.
Another pathetic girl waiting to be loved. There's no difference that you look stronger than the others. No difference that you went through so much shit at home and wanting to be saved. Because you don't just get what you want.
Face it, it's reality we are talking about.
Wake up already. And I won't give up.
12:58 AM