Drew talks to me
I laugh cause’ it’s so damn funny
But I can’t even see
Anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love
He’s finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night
The past is still taunting me.
I hate this part of me.
Always so reluctant to let go something that was never mine.
Or I wish it would be
I smiled even when it was just a few simple words
I tried so hard running from the truth
Always wondering to myself
If I really liked or loved
Somehow I hoped that I could get numb with pain
So that crying was worthless
And that my heart doesn’t felt like it’s in pieces
You cannot hate someone until you know what it might be like to love them
No one love me for me
They loved the mask that I put on everyday
The smile that I have to fake everyday
Even when my heart is in pieces
Feeling like I’m never good enough for someone else
This feeling is taking control
When everything is out of place
The world seems like its crashing at my feet
I didn’t know that
I could feel so much emotion in one night.
The pain that I had to bear with.